I dont think i am lesbian?

ok so im not really attracted to gurls except dis one gurl but she is my bmfffl (best mother ****** friend for life)like we always get close like were bout to kiss but then we dont nd juss laugh but i find myself thinking oh i wish we did kiss nd we take showers together nd stuff(but wit our bra nd panties on) but i also find myself think i wish we wernt wearing anything nd i dont juss go nd kiss to see wat happens because she tells me stories of her old bfs dat turned out to be bi nd dey juss experimented on her nd stuff nd she didnt like it at all so im scared to nd i dont wanna be another one of her bfs to turn out bi you know nd idk wat to do but is it weird i am only attracted to her?